Sitting at the table, eating my third heaping plateful of pasta, I watched as my housemates shuffled in and out of the lounge where we are all gathered around watching Hollyoaks. The dinner conversation turned from who was going to do the washing up to when our final exams had been scheduled…no one mentioned my food…or my eating habits. I don’t know if that was out of politeness? Or embarrassment? Or whether they simply didn’t notice or worst of all…didn’t care. Part of me felt resentful that no one asked what was wrong and the other part felt grateful that my eating disorder and me were being left alone.
Tom…my story for all those suffering.x
August 3rd, 2010A statement of anger towards magazines
July 9th, 2010I’m sorry magazines, but I think our love affair has ended. I remember the days when you excited me. I would look forward to when you would release a new issue and browse through it with much anticipation, pawing over the latest clothes, gasping over celebrity gossip (or chuckling depending on what the story may be) and dreaming of looking like the gorgeous celebrities or models you printed.
Rachel’s Story
March 26th, 20101 ½ Years after being with the recover clinic I can now see what could be and what is possible without my anorexia. At only 22 years old, I have a whole life ahead of me, which, without the help of treatment I’m sure would be destroyed by my eating disorder. However, now I can positively say that I believe this is not to be and I can see opportunities and excitement for the future.
Mary’s thoughts…
March 23rd, 2010Sometimes life is so tough that I just want to run away. I have this fantasy that I will move to France and get a job working in a café and will then fall in love with some mysterious stranger. Then I wake up and I’m in London and it’s dark and it’s cold and it’s my life I’m living once again. My eating disorder turns every feeling that I have into something about my body or food. I find it hard to keep a grip on what I’m feeling and then to make sense of why I’m feeling it.
From Pearl: Recover = Life
February 15th, 2010Recovery = life
This sounds so simple, but it is a new revelation of mine as I have been spending all my time trying to do ‘recovery’ lately and focussing on how best to do this, rather than actually experiencing life.
But what is recovery anyway?
Pearl’s latest: Still Hungry
February 1st, 2010STILL HUNGRY…
I’ve just left the restaurant, it’s late, I’m tired, I need my bed, yet all I can think about is food. I’ve just eaten dinner but I want to eat.
I feel fat, bloated, ugly, disgusted with myself for what I’ve just eaten (white refined carbs AND dairy AND something fried AND something oily). But I still want to eat.
Sarah’s comments…
January 25th, 2010Sarah is a remarkable young woman who is recovering from an eating disorder. We asked Sarah if she had anything that she would like to share with other people who might be struggling to overcome an eating disorder and this is what she said:
Pearl – The Recover Clinic’s blogger
January 19th, 2010Pearl is part of the The Recover Clinic community and will be sharing her hopes, dreams and experience in our blog. We hope that you are all able to take something from Pearl’s brave decision to share her world with us.
“Welcome Pearl”
Pearl’s first post: At war with Eating Disorder: Feeling like a failure
January 19th, 2010At war with Eating Disorder: Feeling like a failure
I can’t believe it. It’s happened again. Despite three stints in rehab, weekly counselling sessions, group therapy, and regular attendance at 12 step fellowship meetings, I have spent the last week bingeing. Again. What’s WRONG with me?
What can we do to help?
January 18th, 2010We know that their are hundreds of people out there struggling with eating disorders and we would like to hear from you to help us figure out what more we can do to encourage people with eating disorders to reach out for help?